I have been so close..ah! So close to sinking in the deep sea of faint unconscious world.. drowning away bit by bit. I still clearly remember the smell..smell of death with the traffic lights buzzing or were those the monitors attached to me, beeping and screaming for attention..not sure..

I was laughing and pulling pranks just minutes before reciting one of my fun -poems for my boss's farewell on the lines:

His desk has piles of papers everywhere
U can’t miss the struggle of that shy piece of wood
Trying to peep from somewhere
But amazingly enough! He always knew
What was sitting where

He loves animals and it showed on his ties
From red elephants to pink butterflies
He comes over looking for stamps
Hope by now he has one from 
every country ,on the world map

Very passionate about whatever he does
even from holidays his calls were a must
at times we wished his blackberry would die
Only if we knew it would be so difficult
To wish him good-bye

and now..here I was in the resuscitation unit stuggling for life. No! I wasn't scared of death - not because I am bold but only because I didn't know what dying feels like. Only gasping for breath.. I just wanted to be able to breathe normal and nothing else mattered - not being able to open my eyes or not feeling the incessant pricking of needles or the pressure in the doctors voices or the warmth of streaming blood.. nothing mattered..only breathing did.

Finally after what seemed to be minutes without any peripheries or dimensions, my friend lightened her grip on my hands, grateful that she will not have to worry about doing my last rites now :). They told me that I had died a brief death but I smiled for I could breathe again and I think that I am back again - for good!

Kush was right, I shud perhaps explain more - I had world's worst asthama attack and nearly lost it my vital signs had dropped by 95% ..spent last three days in the ICU. But, am feeling all pampered rite now as my friends came in with lots n lots of chocolates n flowers n a big miss u +get well soon card with cutest messages scribbled all over. Just what I needed :) 

The next stage shud b shoppin - retail therapy works when everything else fails :)

added on 4 april :(

I hate my doc who has confined me to home for another six days...I wanna go n watch a movie wid friends but they are all on his side...dost dost naa rahe....aaaaaaa.....for a change 'I am even missing office' ye to wahi haal ho gaya jo board exams mein tv ka hota tha ' I told mom tht let my exams finish I will watch even 'krishi darshan' then'!! get me outuv here yaar! koi to bachao...